In a Moment


encouragement, faith / Wednesday, November 7th, 2018

Recently, a friend shared with me the song, “One Day{When We All Get to Heaven}”, and I haven’t been able to get enough. Amelia refers to it as the “Heaven” song, and we sing along together. We even sang it at the balloon release I went to a few weeks ago. I feel like I am hearing it all over.  I had it in the car the other day, and noticed for the first time the lyrics that declare “in a moment we shall be changed”,  referring to when we finally see Jesus face to face. And, oh how I longed for that moment. I was currently in the Wal-Mart parking lot, but so desired to be in that moment with Jesus where everything changes.

The lyrics rolled around in my mind for a little bit, and I began to think of the earthly moments that have caused so much change.  I thought about marrying Neil. We loved each other before and after those vows, but in the moment when we said “I do”, things did change. There was now a covenant between us. I thought about when we were dating, and how there would always be a question of if we would get to spend certain holidays together. Since we met in college, we went home to our respective families for the major holidays, and our loyalty on those days was to our family of origin. We would go on a special Christmas date in College Station before we left town, but December 25th was traditionally reserved for our family. Well, in that moment when we were married, all questions about where we would be on the holidays vanished. We would be together. We became a family. We also became each others “emergency contact” on all paperwork. Each other’s beneficiary. Officially, everything changed for us in that moment. Permanency and legitimacy were established.

I thought about Amelia’s birth, and how at 2:01 am on July 22nd, that moment changed everything for us. A healthy baby girl was born, and we were given the privilege and responsibility of raising her. There is a quote about motherhood that says “motherhood is deciding to forever have your heart walk outside of your body”, and in that moment, emotionally speaking, my heart left my body. It lay next to us in the plastic bassinet in the hospital. Currently it is asleep in the crib.  Sometimes it is at the playground, or eating lunch at Chick-Fil-A. There whereabouts change, but one thing is for sure, my heart has been walking outside of my body every since our daughter was born.

Most recently, I thought about the ultrasound rooms I have been in. Two different rooms, yet the air was sucked out of both of them when we were given the news that our baby’s heart had stopped beating. In that brief moment, things changed. The newborn sized Christmas onesie that I found in bag of hand me down clothes, given to be my sister-in-law, suddenly not only became irrelevant, but also a painful reminder of what no longer would be. Pregnancy apps would be deleted. News would travel to our friends and family. The box of maternity clothes would again leave our master bedroom. My heart would grieve and plans would unravel, all in that moment.

There will be another moment that changes everything. The moment referenced in the song. In a “moment we shall be changed”. We will see Jesus for who He truly is. We will stand face to face with the King of Kings. As Paul says in I Corinthians 13:12 “For now we see in a mirror dimly, but then face to face.”In that moment our sin struggles will vanish. My discontentment and my doubting heart will fall away. I will have no need, I will lack nothing, for I will be with my Shepherd and in Him I will have all that I need. The former things will have passed away, and only eternity with Christ will remain.  Oh, how I long for that day, that moment. I have seen earthly moments change things both for good, yet also in ways that have wrecked my heart, but there is a moment coming that far surpasses any moment on earth. That moment will be perfection, and until then, I will keep singing those lyrics in anticipation.